Citizen of the world…

April 17, 2009

The controversy of feelings or Uncommon ways to love people we care about

Filed under: Family,Feelings,Home,Uncategorized — emimizolie @ 6:39 pm

Spending months in a country that is not ours and sometimes apart from what we know create feelings we don’t know how to consider or how to deal with.

I have never felt France would be a place I could not leave. When I’m not abroad, I always dream about being away, speaking a foreign language, living according to a new culture, discovering people with a different way of thinking. My spirit is ceaselessly traveling abroad which explain why I often look away, off in another world, when I’m not working on a project or something else. I’ve got that uncontrollable need to discover something new, apart from what I’m used to consider and that would challenge my understanding of life. This constant research of something new impacts considerably on my personality and consequently, on whom I truly am.

Since I have started to travel the seven seas, I have developed that little something I still don’t know how to describe. However this little thing is not so little as it keeps increasing the gap between the larger circle of my entourage and I. Being a Citizen of the World is often out of people’s range of understanding. They cannot understand how you think, why you think that way and what it means. Just few people can actually understand. The reason is simple: they are experiencing the same thing. That’s a funny thing and a controversial one at the same time. Traveling like I do, enlarge the circle of friends (I’m talking about the ones with who we keep in touch for years) but also reduce it considerably. We end by feeling isolated from the rest of the people around us because of a barrier that no one can circumvent. A barrier that keeps you from connecting with them.


On the other hand, when considering the core of my entourage (family and closest friends), the feelings linking us, turn in a way, at the opposite of what they should be. Moving away from people we love and who are precious for us brings us closer to each other. The inconvenient is that except for some initiated, only the ones moving away know it. Being away from home for many months make us realize how much we need and miss our entourage. By the time we finally come back home, the world did not stop to turn while we were away. It changed, we changed and so did the people we love. When we come back home, we feel a gap like if suddenly we were not belonging to that world anymore. Not because we would feel rejected, but simply because we have a perception of the world different from the one we had before we left. That perception has impacted on our personality and probably on our behavior too. As a result, we find ourselves uncomfortable at the place of our own origins, like being a square shape trying to fit in a round one.

This feeling of unconfortability cannot be shared with the rest of our entourage who may not be able to understand it and maybe, would feel hurt because of it. But still, we cannot change the way we feel. This is why, when we go back abroad, we don’t feel guilty with those feelings anymore, as we are not confronted to them anymore. As a result, the few exchanges we have with our family are just about expressing love, and how much we miss them. Being guilt free, allow then our love to be fully expressed. Thus, we realize that no matter what our experiences are, love is always here, always the same. Only change the ease and the way we have to express it. But this, only the ones who leave know.


July 4, 2008

Con te partiro

Filed under: Family,Music — emimizolie @ 3:48 am

I remember the first day I heard that song. I was 9 when my grandmother made me discovered it in 1996. From the first second, i fell in love for it. To date, the emotion i feel when i listen to it is still intact. The same passion invades my mind and my heart. It helps me to remember my grandmother. She loved Andrea Bocelli’s voice and so do I. This song was Our song. This song is Our song.

June 27, 2008

Forget everything you thought you knew !

Filed under: Family — emimizolie @ 10:33 pm

Ladies and Gentleman, let me introduce you two of family’s specimen !

my little sister Solene and my little (1.82M) brother Cedric:

Cedric (14) is going to Boston tomorrow by himself ! Good guy, you finally did it !! And if we got luck, he’ll probably come to New York for a week-end! Mimi is happy !

Solene (17) is in Madrid since few weeks… She is already a good Spanish speaker and i mean it, ( I don’t say that with a lack of objectivity , she really is ! )

You both remember me when i left home for the first time for Canada… All alone in a far away country, with another language and nobody around that you know… Sometimes it’s good to start from nothing… Once you catch the virus, you become like me ! You travel everywhere you can, impregnate yourself with new cultures and lifestyles…

Forget all prejudices you had about the world… Ethnic treasures are totally beyond your rich until you get your eyes out of your pocket and enrich yourself with all these differences! Then, you become ” A citizen of the world “. This is my way to learn from life and become a better person…

For the people who think they know everything of the different ethnic groups just by watching news on TV, I dare them to move their asses from their sofa and go in a foreign country for another purpose that Club Med holidays. (God knows how many of them i saw). That’s so much easier to criticise USA (for example) when you have never been there and never try to talk with Americans…

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